4th of July

There's not many times when I will open up and complain out loud, besides to my closest friends and family, about how I'm feeling when it comes to Alex being gone. It's rare because it's obvious that I'm missing him and want him home and people don't need to constantly hear it. But with 4th of July being tomorrow, I know it's going to be a rough day. Last 4th was one of my favorite days I have ever spent with Alex...and I was really looking forward to repeating that day again this year...until this lovely thing called a deployment happened. Hello military life <3

So, my goal for tomorrow is to try and stay as busy as possible, have as much fun as possible, and keep a positive attitude. If I don't do that, I know I will let my mind get the best of me and I will break down...and I definitely do not want that to happen. It's not that I'm afraid to break down or that I think it's bad if I do. It's just that me, personally, do not want to let myself get to that point. And I definitely don't want Alex to know that happened. I know he's not stupid. He knows that I miss him with every ounce of my being at the moment. He knows this is rough on me, just like I know it's rough on him too. But it's not fair to him to be worrying about me while he's over there doing his job. He needs to be focused on the task at hand, not worrying about what's going on at home. A strong wife/girlfriend means a strong Marine.

So, as of now, Alex will be home NEXT MONTH! And I cannot wait! :) I have a dress purchased for his homecoming! I still have my eyes open for other options, but I feel better knowing I have a contender! I have plans for his homecoming party with his family and friends. It is going to be so much fun! I just wish I knew that exact date...again, military life <3

I will keep taking everyday one day at a time...starting tomorrow, the dreaded 4th of July. But it will be fun filled! Starting my morning hanging out with my best friend Bekah and my nephews, Damien and Mason <3 and ending of the day with one of my favorite people, Carrie and her super cute boys, Zackary and Brayden! Good friends, cute kids and celebrating America! :)